Some Reflections

       It's almost here...the dreaded 22nd birthday. I can smell it...it's so close.

       Okay, it's really not that bad. It's just that now that I'm in my 20s I like to take time each birthday and reflect where I'm going, how things have changed, and what I want to do. Usually though it all results in a giant blur. My 20s are just confusing.

       It's hard  to figure out if I'm going the right direction at times. If you read Cosmo, it says I should be done college and starting my career in corporate America and maybe engaged. But in the real world it so is not even like that. I'm in my junior year of college a semester behind due to medical complications, I work a meaningless job as a registrar in a hospital and I just started dating. Talk about a late bloomer..

       I suppose I should not worry  too much about any time constraints. I still am young but at the same time aspire to achieve so much. Lately I've been thinking about what I need to do to be happy and achieve my dreams. I've decided I want to be a consultant for a fashion company or beauty company. It's where my passion lies. I would love to be the PR person for Estee Lauder, MAC, Coach, whatever. I don't know if I would get there in but hopefully it'll happen.

       The dating scene is going (I'm scared to say it) very well. I'm so used to be rejected and hurt that for once in my life I think I found someone who actually may love me, for me. And you know what? It feels AMAZING. I still have the issues of letting my guard down but I'm working on it. I try to be as caring as I can with him but still it's all new to me to have someone see me both inside and out. It must be going pretty swell though. Usually I'm over his place about twice a week. Lately though I've been there almost every day. We watch tv together falling asleep on the couch, play video games, or watching sports. I've even spent a week at his parent's house with him. For once I'm scared because I think I may have met my match.

       There's a lot going on and a lot I want to change but I just need to take some out to reflect on it. After all there's only 8 more days to go till the big 22.